What to say about today? I am not sure. Long days, have been around me these past few weeks and I am not sure why. It just seems as I get older time seems to really speed up. I am always thinking that there is going to be more time to do things, but then their really isn’t. I mean in a heartbeat, after I turned 18, I was 21 and then an instant later I was 25 and before I could finish writing this sentence I am 28 almost 29 and it doesn’t seem to be slowing down. I know as you get older time goes by faster, but at this rate I simply cannot imagine life when I am like in my fifties or beyond.
You see God, our heavenly creator has everything to do with it. He is one of the most sadistic beings that has ever come into creation. He just likes fucking with the good people of this world. Is this really a bad thing? I mean I know the human race is a pretty arrogant and I am not sure how we stand up against the many other species that are intelligent in our Universe, but being a human for the last 28 years, it’s been a tough road dealing with the stupid and retarded behavior that the people of this world like to act. I mean just think of all the useless wars, crimes, and stupidity that humans do.
One of the biggest examples of just how stupid humans are is when the Spanish conquered the Aztecs. The Aztecs the most violent and deadly of Central American tribes had an army of a million strong. Even if disease was around, and even if the 500 or so Spaniards had an army of 10,000 with help from the other locals, the million strong army could not wipe them out. I mean the Spanish did have guns, but they were for one shot, the Aztecs, had bows and arrows, and clubs and just could have wiped them all out. But what really fucked the Aztecs was a so called holy prophecy said that a being with blue eyes and golden hair would take their civilization into a whole new direction, and boy did it. Rape, murder and the conquering of a whole nation of people. I mean why couldn’t Montezuma, have been like every other god fearing person and just killed and destroyed what was different.
Life sucks and God sucks, for being an ever loving father or mother or whatever horse shit you believe in, he sure doesn’t like to take care of his people. Even to the Jewish people, the so called “Chosen People”, look how they were treated.
God is more like Loki a trickster, a whisperer, or more like a little kid who likes to burn ants with a magnifying glass or the type that likes to pour salt on slugs or the wings off of flies. God is cruel with time and opportunity and he or she lets our faith in him or her, destroy others for it.
In this day and age, God, is nothing.
Yeah. Lots of stuff sucks... I know you are familiar with that feeling especially now.
ReplyDeleteI understand, Julian.
But before you write off everything... maybe you see a tree covered in beautiful little pink flower blossoms... or a goose paddling across the lake with its little adorable babies paddling after it... or maybe your grandma tells you she loves you and you just know deep inside you that it is unconditional and that you can count on her with absolute certainty to be there with that love.
I understand that life can feel like it sucks. There are countless reasons to be down on God and society and historic situations...
But there are also countless reasons to feel blessed. That life is magical, and that we are incredibly lucky to be breathing and experiencing... and we are all surrounded with undefinable possibilities. Life is what we make of it.
Ever since I have known you, I have felt that you were brimming with these possibilities. I know that if you don't let the the pessimism drag you down, that you can make whatever you want to out of your life. You say that time is flying fast... but Julian... 28 is YOUNG. The best years of your life are ahead of you -- and I hope like crazy that you embrace your future with the confidence and enthusiasm that you should.
Zoe